2 Sep

So I’m having issues eating at the moment & have been for a good few weeks. It’s starting to get to the point where it’s really irritating me now, and I just feel weak and rubbish as a consequence. Because of not eating properly, Stacey doesn’t know where she’s at, so I don’t know what’s going on with her. I also keep getting a localised, what I can only describe as an ache that feels like a pulled muscle, under her that comes and goes. I am still managing to dilate her, but she does seem a little tight compared to a few weeks ago. I’m on a bit of a downer at the moment. When I try to eat things, I get a bit through them then just lose the will to eat and can’t face it anymore. I’ve tried Dioralyte sachets to help with my hydration, but I just brought it back up again. I’m getting so fed up now. I constantly feel dehydrated and rubbish and just want to cry most nights because everything I drink goes straight through me and things I manage to eat just make me feel sick or make me feel uneasy as they squeeze through Stacey. I’ve also lost weight, from the near nine stone I was a few months ago to seven and a half now. Bad times.

I’m all for ostomism as I call it and keeping positive, but sometimes I just want to scream and throw the towel in with it all, especially when I feel ill and rubbish and have other health issues too. ARGHHHHH! There, I screamed haha! 😀

Going to get a Doctor’s appointment tomorrow, fingers crossed. I will keep you all updated 🙂

Also, before I go, a big shout out to Hastie off my support group on Facebook who has just undergone surgery a few days back to have a colostomy formed. He is a trooper and is doing amazing. We are all so proud of you! I know he will read this at some point, I’m not just writing as if I’m talking to myself! 😀 Keep it up Hastie, you are a true inspiration and there are many people here for you 🙂

If you fancy checking out his blog: 🙂 Go read! 🙂


6 Responses to “Eating”

  1. john ingamells September 2, 2012 at 9:07 pm #

    you are having a tough time with a number of things. It really only helps to say ‘i’ve been there’ in the sense that i have been in the depths and got back up physically and mentally. The dehydration will be making you feel so weak and emotional, it’s good that you are going to see your doctor. I hope you can get some rest, get some hydration and hopefully not have too much stoma discomfort. i wish you well for the this night, and hopefully, you will see some upturn physically and emotionally soon. Even now, at 51 and a bloke, i still feel it helps to cry and let it all out at times. Take care.

    • staceystoma September 2, 2012 at 9:08 pm #

      Thank you John for your kind words. At the end of my tether with it at the moment! Hopefully the doctor will have some answers! x

  2. Kate Worth September 3, 2012 at 11:04 pm #

    My father-in-law has had a colostomy since his twenties. We never really talked about it until this past weekend. He shared the most amazing, heart-warming story about the days leading up to his first procedure. I wrote about it in my blog this week. It’s worth a read for dealing with this emotionally difficult procedure…

    • staceystoma September 4, 2012 at 8:36 pm #

      I’m read it Kate, thank you 🙂 x

  3. Louise Stevenson September 5, 2012 at 9:59 am #

    Hi Amy,

    So sorry to hear of your tough time you are going through.

    We have a great nurse called Anne Lamb-Cona who is based at our head office (rather then our team of nurses based out in the field) and she is more than happy to talk to you and hopefully offer you some useful advice. Please either call our Customer Service Team on 0800 378 846 and ask to speak to Anne or email us at with F.A.O for Anne Lamb-Cona in the subject header.

    It’s good you are going to the doctor and hopefully he / she will be able to help but if you ever need clinical specialist advice then please call Anne.

    Sending you a big hug!


    • Fittleworth September 5, 2012 at 11:01 am #

      Or you can call Anne directly on 01903 311 040

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